Dec 9, 2011

Last Year Ago


This time last year I had reached my limit.
I couldn't breathe.
I had to escape --
Self-preservation at its most desperate.

I needed to go home.
Melbourne.

Approaching the city,
My breaths became heavy;
Fighting back tears of relief,
Of elation,
Of memories,
Of a place so alive.

This time last year I sat on the train,
I laughed and cried openly
As the city revealed itself to me.
Some different; improved.
The important things stayed the same.

I walked through the Richmond gardens
Usually buzzing with people
Dead silent this day --
No football.

I sat on the steps of the MCG.
I shivered and then wept.
Why? I'm not sure.
Relief, perhaps.
I missed you intensely.

This time last year I touched your skin,
I felt your lips,
I smelled your skin,
I saw your smile,
And heard your voice.

This time last year I kissed you goodbye.
AGAIN.

It wasn't enough.
I'm still recovering.
Last year ago, I felt something.

I've been searching ever since...


Mama's Losin' It

14 comments:

  1. Beautiful and yet so sad.
    I didn't realize you were Australian. I thought you were Canadian living in TO? I need to creep your profile now, I need the deets!

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  2. Dummy...You break my heart.
    Thanks for sharing so much of yours.

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  3. @Lesley

    Haha! You call me a dummy.. Leighann prefers asshole.

    You ladies warm my heart :)

    @Sandra

    I am Canadian but I lived in Melbourne and it's the only place I really felt a profound connection to.

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  4. Brilliant. I can feel this. Thank you!

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  5. Tears in my eyes! Beautifully written!

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  6. Wow...you write with such passion. Your poem grips my heart. I'm glad I got to read it.

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  7. I didnt even have a clue you were Australian. Coolio. :)

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  8. Gorgeous.
    I popped over from Mama Kat's. Glad I did.

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  9. You get about don't you? ;)

    Beautifully written ho!

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  10. s w o o n -- seriously beautiful! i have the utmost respect for anyone who can write poetry...

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  11. *sigh*

    Can I just say, I'm right there with you? I've felt what you felt, but could never have written it as beautiful as you have here?

    Hey, next time you come to Melbourne, I'll meet ya there. It's closer to me than Canada ;)

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  12. What a beautiful post.
    How heartbreaking that your heart lives there and you miss it so much.

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